The more you do, the more you learn.
The last couple of months I’ve gone from being “overexposed” to people sending me e-mails about where I’ve been.
The truth is, it’s been an insane last couple of months with shows which have all brought great stories and experiences. At one point, LEGACY got so busy that I couldn’t keep up with having a normal life outside of work and weekend shows. Now, things have slowed down but could pick up any second.
During this 3 year rollercoaster of LEGACY I’ve come to really put into perspective what performing really means to me and how much I’m dependent on it in order to keep happy. Gloria (our Producer) once told me that I’m the type of person who needs that artistic outlet in order to keep me happy and focused. At first I took it as “okay.. sure”… When things came to a halt last summer after the success of the shows, I began to feel sad and began doing unproductive things to fill my void. Once we began working on the 2011 series, I was up and running again… I felt happy and completely focused.
Long story short, I’ve come to realize that Gloria was right 400%. I need this. I need this as part of my life. It’s who I am and truly, it’s where I feel most comfortable; on stage. I have friends and many, many acquaintances who I don’t see very much. I’m not a partier nor do I tend to be in the common places people go to socialize. I just don’t; as a matter of fact, the times I do get out it’s because I’m there to entertain others. Once the show is over, I take photos with MJ fans and then I go back to my quiet usualness.
Being onstage is an entire different animal. You are at your most vulnerable state, yet for some of us it’s worth the risk. The more I do this, the more I feel connected with Michael Jackson whom I never met, yet I know so well. I feel at home, I feel at piece and I never feel alone. The more you engage yourself to something that draws you anyway, you never want to let go.
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